Chronic Pain

A 51 year old female living and dealing with lumbar back pain and fibromyalgia. Sharing things I do for relief, reduce stress and control weight gain.

Friday, April 5, 2013

Still with us

A goes home today.  Meeting her mom later this afternoon.  I wanted to take a minute to update you on a few things.  I took Mr. R's advice and called back the next day.  No one at my PM doctors office bothered to tell me he has another location now that is not far at all from me.  He is there on Monday mornings.  I guess they just assumed that I'd prefer where I've always went since I have a BR address.  What gets me is that they said nothing available until the 23th but when I called back and took Mr. R's advice I got an appointment for this Monday morning @ 9:45.  I guess I don't have to understand how they work just that I got what I needed even though it took multiple calls to get it.

Late last night we got an update on my friend Jeannie.  She is slipping away her husband tells us.  Hospice said she would most likely not make it to Easter but she did.  Ed told us that she smiled when her eyes opened Easter morning and he said, "Happy Easter"  She was excited to know she made it to Easter but not why you'd think.  She didn't want to mess up anyones Easter plans.  The next date they were giving her was Wednesday and Thursday rolled around and she's still with us.  Her husband said her breaths are few and speaking a bit more out of head and less control of her body.  It's becoming very difficult for her to remain awake.  

Ed's words; Yet through this all she has yet to complain, ask "why me?", or make the first negative comment.  When she was still lucid, she would apologize for leaving me so young time and again.  She prayed over and over that once she reached the point of speaking out of her head that she wouldn't say anything ugly or unkind.  She has been more out than in her head for a solid week now and hasn't uttered the slightest unkind thought.  It simply is not in the nature of this angelic, Child of God!

Every time my phone chimes the sound of a CaringBridge update I dread to open it for I know the time is here.  I wanted to visit again this week but I think my last visit with her was so nice and "normal" that I want to keep that memory of my last time with her.  I hope her passing on to her new life is as simple as falling asleep and having a sweet dream.  Her daughter in law wrote a beautiful poem I'd like to share on my next post.  

For now I'll say good day.Theresa

1 comment:

Unknown said...

It's probably the best thing to remember your friend from your last visit. She sound like that what she would want you to do. I had no choice but a few years ago I went and saw a friend right after she went into a coma she died the next day and to this day it haunts me the way I remember her.